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14th November 07…

was a monday,same old routine. college. back home. but on this monday there was a slight rearrangement on my routine. was at college like normal. there was suppose to be a meeting with the committee at 1pm.

and as i was sitting in the room waiting for the rest,i get a message. very unusual time to recieve a message from this person. she was asking if am interested in watching a movie with her.

i was like flying sky high,at the same time my heart was pounding. damn!! i felt so excited. told my friends that i wont b there for meeting and i scooted of with G to MidV.

she had got the tickets but we had to sit far away from her. felt reli bad,but at least i was there.

the day was awesome. we had drinks togather. and she had her friend there as well. annisha(anu). came down to college as well. was cool man. she met the jing bang,thuresh,joshua,yeow,mirna,dalveen,rueben…cant remember the rest.

i must say..she is gorgeous!! she looked reli sweet but a bit tired as well. G said he had a good time with her as well. i bet cause she is so comfortable to talk to. unless her silent moments..

waited for her to take the train back home. train was delayed. the usual..hehe. she said,G was a good friend. i agree.. nice guy that fellow.

well all in all, it was a beautiful day. never expected it and it happened. thank GOd for that man.

you know at times i sit and think to myself, if there was nothing to be made of that then why give it?? probably there has to be some more patience for me..i gotta wait a little while longer.

past five days was not around. had been away. was more to myself most of the time and been thinking about so many things. come to realise, that everytime in life if there was once you had a chance to grab something and it slipped..dont ever let it drop. go for it!!

another very important thing, dont do things for the sake of doing it. everytime you commit yourself into something, give your very best like there was no tommorow. do it for love,passion…what ever that means the world to you. let it come from the bottom of your heart. feel the sincerity.

like i always say..let yourself go!!

p/s: if on the monday i had been silent, i am sorry. was really excited to see you. the words couldnt come out. jaws were numb as well. thank you for that wonderful day!!

untill today there are many occasions that i might have not used ma brains to do something..

had the heart in priority..

sad to say it was all ma downfall..used to wonder why is that when you had given something a good thought it still backfires..it did once but the on the second time..i thought it would as well,but was wrong this time.

never knew she had so much feelings..

if only it triggered in my mind to ask her,would not have to be in this situation like this today..every bit of it bitting on me slowly,the skin not yet numb!!

how long is this going to take?? i really dont know..stay up late at night just thinking how foolish i could ever be..a wonderful person she is..n all i got now is just memories..

my heart right now..is so bloody heavy!! like there is a bulk of something invisible hanging on to it..it might be the worry,upsetness,sadness,frustration, and maybe anger clinging on the very edge of my vein.

had a chance to at least get a glance at her..even that,i was unlucky..its really weird things like this happen to people like me…

the beauty about things is that..God has still not let go of me…how i wish i could ride her on ma journey too..damn!! she is gorgeous..